"Confidence is a feeling, that comes from with in, and we all have it"

Miranda

You are not where you used to be!

This is a tough realization. For the past year I have been an empty nest momma who is just trying to find her way back to horses and riding. I truly thought that I would be able to pick up where I left off. I even picked up a troubled horse and I thought for sure I would be able to get this horse back on track……. boy was I wrong. I went to step up into the stirrup and this feeling of nervousness, panic and anxiety over whelmed me. As a long-time horse owner, I knew that me getting on that horse that day was not going to be a good thing. Even if the horse wanted to be cooperative, my energy would have caused a big set of problems. It was in this moment that I stepped away from the horse and had a meltdown, I couldn’t believe that I just couldn’t get up on that horse, what was wrong with me???


Well, there is nothing wrong with me. While my kids were growing up, I knew that I was extra cautious because of all the “what if’s”. I didn’t want to get hurt, so I really pulled back on what I did with horses and I always made sure I was around and riding safe horses.


This past fall/winter I have really tried to push my horsemanship and put my focus back on being around, helping and working with horses. This is one blessing that I have received from COVID 19, it has given me the time to really focus on them and myself.


The first step was to be ok with accepting the fact that I am not where I used to be when I was 18 years old and would ride anything with a saddle on. Once I accepted this, it gave me the ability to actually look at where I am and where I want to be.



I will leave you with this thought today,


You may not end up where you thought you were going, but you will always end up where you were meant to be…….